Wolf in sheeps clothing

I know for me when I call you a friend I mean it. However, when I lose a friend it hurts. Recently I thought of someone as a good friend only to find out that they were not who I thought they were. I am still pretty upset with the situation. Yes I feel as though I could have handled things different but I can’t change that now. I was so upset that this person was not who I thought. It wasn’t like one minute we were ok and the next we weren’t. See in the past months it’s been little things being said or done that started to get me wondering. Well, this person was saying things that I just couldn’t see being said by others. I know that there have been times I heard things being said by others and I won’t deny this. But when the things this person said the others were saying I just didn’t believe it. Well at first I did and it caused a whole lot of stress and tension between a lot of us. Well last week this person said that another said something. So instead of dwelling on it and getting mad at the other person I asked them. That’s when I realized that all these months I was believing things being said that were being taken out of context or not being said at all. I was getting mad at people who I have known for eight years. In workplace you gain some great additions to your life. These people/friends are people who have walked beside me and held my hand in my darkest days. I realize it’s a work environment and you shouldn’t be so personal with others, but when you are with them 40+hours a week it’s hard not to share the joys in your life and also vent about things that are going on. It just really upsets me that I have to let someone walk out of my life that I called friend because they were a wolf in sheep clothing.  

Superhero Short Story- Firefly Princess

There once was a little girl name Lily Waters who grew up in a small farm community. As a child her parents gave her chores which included going outside after dark to feed the chickens. Well you see this was the worst chore she had because she was terribly afraid of the dark. When you live in the country there are no street lights to provide you light. She didn’t mind her chore so much on summer nights when the firefly’s would be out. She felt safe because she convinced herself that they were little fairies sent to protect her and light her way.

One night while she was running to the chicken coop she had a terrible accident. You see it was dark and she couldn’t see where she was running; when out of nowhere she bumped her head off of one of the fence posts. Her parents rushed her to the doctors where she laid in a coma for a week. When she woke up her parents were not there, the room was dark and scary. That’s when it happened; all she did was wish for firefly’s to light the room and next thing she knew there was a dozen jars of firefly’s that appeared in the room.

When she went home a few days later, she was getting around to go outside and do her chores. So when she went outside she closed her eyes and prayed for fireflies. When she opened her eyes there were thousands of them lighting up the yard. That’s when she knew that she wanted to help other kids who were afraid of the dark. So each night she would sneak out of her house and go around to houses that had children, close her eyes and wish for fireflies to light up the children’s rooms. The children who were afraid of the dark were no longer afraid to go to bed ever again. They knew the Firefly Princess would keep their rooms lit up. 

Yoo, Alice. "500 LEDs Resemble Glowing Fireflies at Night." My Modern Met. 

My Modern Met, 28 Dec. 2012. Web. 28 June 2014.

Letter to myself

Dear Jessy,

Something you did when you were 12 will haunt you forever. When James asks you if that is your mom as your walking beside her to the store don’t be sarcastic and say no because it doesn't come out that way. The pain you caused your mother even though you didn't mean to will always stick with you. That will be one of your biggest regrets. Please stop arguing with your mom and walk away when you get annoyed. Don’t say to her you wish you were never born. When you get older you will realize just how much it hurt her. She has done everything in her power to provide you with what you needed so stop being the rebellious teenager.

When you are in high school you will have the time of your life. Don't worry about getting that job when you are 16 because it’s only gonna cause your grades to slip. When you graduate high school you will have your first heart break. That boy is no good and he will teach you not to be so naïve. When your gut tells you something is up, trust it!

When you are 21 do not write those bad checks that you are thinking about. Your paychecks will not cover them and it will save you embarrassment and the stress of going through court. The people who you are hanging out with will give you some of the greatest memories but always stay on your toes because not all of their intentions are good.

Remember to always love with all your heart and give 110% in everything you do. When you are in your late 20’s you will realize that your life has been good and every mistake you have made has led you to be the caring and compassionate person you are. The people you surround you will always remind you of this and push you to be the best at whatever you decide.

In college your are asked to write a life goal but you should always keep it in mind when your younger as well. It says:

"My Goal in life is to be the best person I can be. To never give up on my dreams. I want to be someone that kids can look up to and influence them to strive to reach their goals."

P.S. Southern Comfort will cause you many awesome nights, but those memories will cause you great embarrassment. So stick with beer or Jack lol

Introduction

My name is Jessica Dawn and I am 30 years old. I spent the first few years of my life in Sugar Valley till I was 4 years old. Then my parents and I moved to Lock Haven. Even though I grew up close to my moms family because of living within a block radius of each other, my heart was always in The Valley. When I was 14 years old my wish came true and my parents and I relocated to Sugar Valley. This is my home!
Things I am interested in include: camping, fishing, photography, quilting, pretty much anything that allows me to be creative.
My inspirations are most definitely my family and friends. Each of us has fought a battle of some kind, but no matter how bad that battle was they all come out of it as amazing human beings. A girl couldn't ask for a better group of inspirational people.

Dear Mommy

Dear Mommy,

You were and will always be one of the strongest women I know. You have been through so much not just with illness but with other events that took place in your life. Never once did I ever doubt how much you cared for me. You always put me ahead of yourself. It was not uncommon for you to go out of your way to help others either. I think god put you in Dad’s life for a reason and that is because he needed someone who would give him the unconditional love, trust and friendship that you did. In turn you had me and were the best mother anyone could ever want. You were always truthful even when others didn’t want to hear it and voiced your opinion. I know that’s where I got it from. I look at my friends and the childhoods/ relationships they had and I feel so bad that they weren’t given the parents that I was. I could never imagine having a parent who didn’t stand up for me or protect me the way that you and my dad did. I do have regrets of fights we use to have especially the ones that I had with you when I was a teenager. I remember repeatedly telling you how I wish I was never born. I am sorry for that. Never once did I ever regret you having me as your daughter. When you got sick with the cancer I think I was in denial I kept thinking “Oh she is gonna get through this”. I hoped, I prayed, I begged but in the end I was no longer hoping, praying or begging for you to fight. I just wanted your pain to end. I wish I could have told you how much I loved you in the end. I couldn’t bring myself to tell you because I knew it would upset you and I would cry which wouldn’t have been good for your breathing. Momma I love you so much and cherish every single memory I have with you. I will never forget all of our mountain rides, you teaching me how to drive or the best friend you were to me. I miss you so much and I will never get over losing you. I have an ache in my heart that is never going to go away. But I know that you would want me to live my life the best I can and that you will be with me every step of the way. Momma, thank you so much for being my Mother. Rest in peace my beautiful angel!

Love Always,

Jessica Dawn

Education vs Ignorance

Recently I heard that one of our schools was having children read a Muslim book. Many parents are outraged with the decision. I can see why they are. I mean our country is at war with terrorist of the Muslim culture. However, not all Muslims are terrorist; just like all people black or white aren't assholes. What is it hurting to allow children to learn about other cultures? Students have always been taught about different cultures in school. So why is the Muslim culture different?
I was discussing this topic with my Gramma the other day. She informed me that when she was growing up Italians were looked down on and not excepted. Funny how time changes how others view other cultures. In the past African Americans, Asians, Mexicans etc have been hated by others. I still don't understand why people feel the need to be so ignorant toward other cultures. At one point in American history every single culture was hated by someone else.
Shouldn't we be teaching the next generation to become educated about others and not judgmental?
Promote education & love, not hate &ignorance.