I will now bow, I will not break!

I been having a real ruff time since the falling out with my best friend aka Sister. I have discovered that i am the type of person i hate the most. Which of course is the one who talks behind others backs. I just wish that all these people who are saying that people like that are no good would look in the mirror. Cause guess what fuck faces your the same fucking way! I went into a depression that i could not get out of with help. So thursday June 6th I sucked it up and called the doctor. She of course put me on 25mg of Zolloff. I am not ashamed of it. It wasn't just the shit that happened with Sis that put me into the depression it was also school, working a dead end job, i have no time to enjoy my photography and be creative and also my mom being sick. I been down for a few months but like i said it wasn't until recent that it became to much for me to handle. I am doing better and trying to stay positive. I decided to talk to my counselor and she agreed that it is best if i take some time off school. It's almost as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have been focusing on starting a side business to go with my photography called J.D. Vonada Photography &Creative Designs. I am full of lots of ideas and can't wait for a few weeks from now when I get to take a song and turn it into a photo story. I been getting a lot of response for photo's to which is awesome. I have been trying to stay positive and focus on things that make me happy.
I noticed a few months ago how my attitude was changing and i was no longer positive. I started being hostile and get angry fast. So the fact that it has come to this does not surprise me. I started letting negative people back in my life and i will not make that mistake again. I want to thank all my close friends who message me everyday to check on me, you don't know how much it means to have such great friends in my life like you. My two Valley brothers have been awesome even taking me on their weekend fishing trip and spending time with me just talking. Those boys are amazing! My mom and dad are really supportive of me and dad even bought me a .38 special which made me happy.
My doctor told me to keep a journal of my feelings because it will help me get my frustrations out. I am going to make it public and hopefully it can help influence people positively.

Theme song of the week is "I Will Not Bow" it's been stuck in my head for days :)

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive!