Bad Friend

For the past several weeks I have noticed a change in my personality as well as my emotions. One of which resulted in me being a  bad friend. I am not who I use to be several years ago. It seems that at that time I was a social butterfly who loved hanging out with my friends and family. Now I would rather just stay home with my dad. 

For the past few weeks I have been without my cell phone because I just cant justify spending money on a cell when I pay for a home number. Well I had asked my best friend about hanging out with her for her birthday. She said she would let me know and she did but I didn't get the message until I was already home last night and didn't have the gas to go back to town. I feel so horrible and wished at that point I had my cell turned on so I could have gotten her message. It would have been so great to hang out with her on her birthday. Last year I wasn't able to due to my mom being sick with the cancer. I have other friends to that have taken a back seat with me. I am not sure what my plans are for New Years Eve but I think that as long as the weather is good I am going to make the trip to see my best friend aka Sister. I miss her so much!