Rant and Update :)

So this is kind of going backwards on the positive outlook thing but I just need to get it off my chest.

I find it sad that you still hold so much hatred toward me for things that I had said over three months ago if not more. I also find it sad that you feel the need to exaggerate things to turn people who don't know me against me. Isn't that why you hate me? Talking about you behind your back was why we stopped talking right? You did it even when we were friends so how are you  better than me that you can get away with it?  Doesn't make sense to me? Either way as I have said before it's over with but just felt like I should take a step down from where I was to point that out to you. 

The past couple months have been a big learning experience for me. It has definitely had some pretty low points were reality and the truth came and smacked me across the face pretty hard. I have been learning that no matter how bad you think life is that you should be grateful for what is good. I am so grateful to have friends who continue to stand by my side knowing what I have done in previous months. I have been trying to change how I react to situations and not judging others. It is a very hard habit to break but I have been seeing the rewards of doing this and they are wonderful and less stressful. There was a few things that have gone on in my family that I have not agreed with but instead of jumping in and running my mouth I calmed everyone else down and asked what events caused this and got both sides of the story. Another recent event tested me as well. A family member started to see someone I really didn't care for but instead of being like other people and putting her down I am standing right by her side and hoping the best for her. I dont want to hurt anymore people that I care about. People say that I should voice my opinion and not keep things bottled up. Well i really don't keep anything bottled up I do speak how i feel and I choose the right tone of voice and time to do so. 

I photographed my friend Jenny's wedding this weekend. My cousin Tylor helped me like he has in the past. He has a great eye and I think that if I ever go big in photography that I am going to hire him first. The wedding went great we got a lot of great shots and I walked away from that wedding feeling better about the photographs then i did with the other weddings I had photographed. I am actually thinking about starting to photograph more weddings. I think I might want to work on getting a new camera first. 

Gramma has officially taken over my finances. I think this was one the of best decisions I have made in a long time. My goal is to not have access to my funds and let her do what needs to be done so that maybe someday I can buy her house and live comfortably. So many people say that you can't take your money with you when you die so why not spend it. My gramma has taught me that you never know when your going to have an added expense so it is best to save. Also I want to have nice things and have money to fall back on so I don't have to live pay check to paycheck. So you can all laugh at me for having her handle my fiances but bottom line is I know that I will be ok.