Feeling Good about things

Life seems to be going pretty good at this point and no I am not just saying that. I am pretty happy and staying positive about things. I have been learning that it is really hard not to insert my opinion in my friends problems. I want to be there for them and be someone they can talk to but in the same sense it makes me feel like crap. I end up feeling down or getting pissed that the other person is not doing what I think is right. I wish the best for my friends and family who are having issues but I don't think it is healthy for me to be involved. Today is the start of the Photo Fundraiser for Deb Jodun I only have 4 signed up for it but I guess that is better than nothing. Maybe after I post the first photo from the session I will get more response which would be nice. 

In November one of my best friends turns 30 so I am starting to plan her birthday party. We are going with the Dazed and Confused theme which is one of her favorite movies and mine to. I think I am more looking forward to dressing up in the 70's style lol. My best friend has been there for me since 4th grade. We have gone through our share of problems and have even went years without talking but you know what. When we started talking it was like we just picked up where we left off. It's awesome to have a friend like her. She doesn't lie to me, has never stolen from me and is true to the end. She makes me so proud graduating from collage and managing three little boys. What makes her even better is the fact that she doesn't care if she has a big party she would just be happy with a few friends drinking. It shows me that she truly cares about the more important things than items and outdoing others. Some people should take a lesson from her they might learn something.

My friends had a picnic the weekend after the 4th of July. It was pretty nice, there was no drama and everyone had a good time. I even got to catch up with an old friend. It was great to see how he has grown into a man instead of the crazy, mouthy party boy that he was. Now he went to school is in a stable relationship and buying a house. That is awesome. We ended our night setting off a great firework display which was awesome. 

Guess the saying is true that life is so much better when you delete the negativity out or in my case they delete themselves out. I am kind of glad it ended that way or I don't think I would have done it myself.

Staying Positive

I had a friend recently ask me to post online that I was going to his party just so that two people who I am not getting along with don't show up. Of course I did so but I just wish he would have told them his self instead of covering up his true feelings for them. It is what it is and I am realizing just how many friends talk crap on other friends. I guess I have been so wrapped up in the drama that I wasn't seeing how negative that is. Oh well I suppose since I ain't the one doing it that it doesn't effect me. Some of the crap that is said those is hilarious. I am sure I get talked about by everyone to and it really hasn't been bothering to much the past few days. I am almost to the point where i could care less. I can't change other peoples opinions on myself I can only move on and try to do better. My first step to moving on and living a better life is saying I am sorry to those who have been offended by my words. I really don't care that they constantly put me down for the same things they do or not. I need to become a better person and hopefully they can see the person they are is not great either. 

The past couple weeks I have trying to delete the negative out of my life which due to my own mouth I already had three negative people do that for me. In the process I have started to surround myself with positive thoughts and people. My life goal has always been to be someone that others can look up to and inspire them to do better things with their lives. I know I am not perfect in any way shape or form. In fact my body image is definitely not perfect I am considered morbidly obese. It has been a struggle to change that aspect of myself but just like trying to stay positive it is a everyday battle. I was looking back on some of the projects I had to do when I first started college and came across My Personal Guiding Statement from 2010:

 I will overcome whatever is put in front of me with Respect &Integrity towards myself and others

My Goal in life is to be the best person I can be. To never give up on my dreams of being a photographer. I want to be someone that kids can look up to and influence them to strive to reach their goals. Someday I hope to be a well known photographer in my area. I also want to help other photography students gain experience and skills to help them get one step closer to their dreams.

I think that god had intended me to find this to help me find my way back to myself and help me get back on track. So many people can put me down and try to drag me down with you but I am not falling. I am my own person who controls my own destiny. 

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